I gave you all my thoughts, now I lost my mind.
Giving my all was never the problem. Because I have so much love in me, it just naturally flows. Outpouring. Overwhelming. Overpowering. And maybe that's the reason you got scared, or atleast that's what I tell myself to make me feel better. Because after that, I lost all the love I have, even the one I have built for myself.
Everyday, I ask myself where did I go wrong? What did I do? What did I not do? The constant self questioning and self loathing makes me weak, disturbing my sense of balance, making me lose grip of reality. It was clear to me that you will never love me the way I loved you, but because of this stupid fantasy, I hoped, I prayed and I dreamed.
Giving up hope. Breathing love for tomorrow because there's nothing left for me today. And maybe, just maybe, I'll meet you again in another life and you'll remember that deep down in your heart, I have planted a seed that is just waiting for you, waiting for its time to grow when you're ready to water it.
Grabbed from an old post HERE.

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